We've put years into academia, only to find ourselves cast out of it. Or we're trapped in difficult, precarious positions on its margins. We deserve better than what we got.
I think we deserve to mourn our lost careers, or acknowledge we're in purgatory. Half-seriously, I made this site: a virtual career graveyard.
My serious point is this: loss deserves recognition. Anyway, add yourself too if you want. It's for anyone. For all of us.
Reviewed, restructured, reviewed; finally I gave her the plan on how to RIP me!
Melbourne Australia
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k
Neglect. Nothing was ever good enough.
4 different schools
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k β Reflections
Itβs all a massive scam.
Dr. GFR
Abused but emerged from the ashes
Santa Fe, NM
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Dr. GFR β Reflections
I spent my whole life aspiring to a career and industry - highly educated academics - that I later discovered was abusive, manipulative, and unsafe. Even when I had personal challenges I was unsupported. It was incredibly hard to leave but I'm so glad I did.
pre-pandemic postdoc
Suffered from severe depression and a narcissistic PI
A Dark Place
π
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DSV
Cause of death: academic cliques, abusive partners, and becoming a mother.
Canada
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JB
A once promising graduate student spoiling every opportunity and relationship
USA
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TKO
"You'll never get promoted doing work like that"
UK
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TKO β Reflections
Sacrificed advancement within the academy for work life balance and doing interesting things
WGL
No job, no prospects, no hope.
UK
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Bebop
Could publish but no funding
Northern England
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Bebop β Reflections
No
Harpy
Over-40 PhD meant adjuncting in basements until death (I left instead)
USA
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Harpy β Reflections
Thanks for this mourning service, much needed as so many of us move forward into more nourishing lines of work.
JW
Started lots of projects, never finished them
Purgatory
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JW β Reflections
Iβm definitely NOT getting tenure :(
TheScientist
Dearly missed
Earth
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TheScientist β Reflections
Iβm an ECR, and I can see my professional world is falling apart with my hands tied and mouth shut. Itβs not anybodyβs fault at my work that bad things have happened to me since childhood. It is an unfair, unjust, and unwelcoming profession on top of racism and gender discrimination already for young scientists like me. Iβm exhausted and sick of people telling me to have thick skin.
Meritorious Anon
More work and no money = burnout
Online Prof.
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Meritorious Anon β Reflections
Teaching writing is thankless work.
Former Assistant Professor ASF
Being an academic engaged in the community is an oxymoron.
USA
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Former Assistant Professor ASF β Reflections
Much happier where I am. I only miss teaching and meeting my best colleagues at conferences.
GW
Lost a lot of myself in this journey... I shall arise and live again.
Nigeria
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S
12 years on staff at alma mater, promoted, forced out
R1 Bullshit Town
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VWN
Applied for jobs diligently but never got an interview, or feedback.
Normal Island
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NR
Pushed out of my staff job at my Alma mater so boss could give my job to her BFF
NY
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Anonymous
...Educational system that feeds on students
A country
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CD
A broken system that breaks too many. I miss my students but couldn't continue.
NW England
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CD β Reflections
Thank you for this site! Didn't realise how much I needed to mark the loss of what I thought was going to be my career (I've gone from precarious Associate Lecturer to full time lecturer to part time precarious RA and I'm on my way out for good!).
CM
Adjunct life killed the dream
USA
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CM β Reflections
I naively thought that if I only worked my ass off and proved myself, I could apply for full time employment at my institution. But they just see me as an adjunct, so off to the teaching mines I go, while they promote some inner-department person to a job that they only advertised because they had to.
S. T.
No room for sick people
Academia
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ZA
Actually found I can do research just fine outside of the academy
UK
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2nd Author
PhD + Postdoc + Fruitless Job Search = Divorce
A major metropolitan area
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Laertides
Here lies a undergrad who thought he could be someone
Exeter, UK
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Laertides β Reflections
(R)ejected before his time
LKG
Dum spiro, scribo. But... after 20+ years of online adjuncting, I quit.
the Interwebz
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π
Burnout postdoc
Bullied to the point of burnout
Scotland
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GG
Wasn't very good at it
A different one every 6 months
π
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JB
Had to choose between supporting my children or furthering my career.
UK
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Dr. A
research not 'niche' enough
USA
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CT
You wanted enough income to buy a house here? You absolute moron.
Ann Arbor, MI
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MP
22 years and adjunct, still holding on. Why??
East Coast US, where there are lots of colleges but no jobs
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RS
Likely Perishing
UK
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CS
Not enough papers and thought staying longer would fix it
USA
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CS β Reflections
"You're not a good fit"
JayCayR
Lost in limbo
Somewhere Over The Rainbow
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JayCayR β Reflections
Got a coveted position after a long time. Narcissist PhD advisor had me running the other way, another mentor pulled me back in. Existing contacts in the field are suffused with traumatic memories of grad school. Trying hard to move through and regain my purpose, given current privilege. But a part of me is dead inside.
Anon
Neurodivergence and academia=recipe for disaster
Betelgeuse
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M.
Find a project you love and you'll work really fucking hard and then burn out.
Brighton, UK.
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M. β Reflections
I just want to teach and research without having my worth as a human being bound to the number of published papers. I want to go to conferences without worrying about "networking". I want to post memes on Twitter without worrying about being unprofessional. I want basic job security instead of feeling like someone's doing me a massive favour by giving me a stipend that I can just about survive on. I want to be seen and accepted for who I am, rather than the perfected illusion of myself that so many people seem to prefer.
DeathByOverwork
Killed herself working still not feeling she was good enough
Sitting at desk to mark those last scripts at 4am
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DeathByOverwork β Reflections
The neoliberal university will always demand more more more
HB
Here lies wasted potential and a handful of years of trauma gained
~Moved on to the materials and microscopy industry realm~
π₯
Jess
I never saw a well-balanced life I wanted there anyway.
Vancouver, BC
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RP
Where do I begin?
Hobart
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Sad but glad
Clung on grimly, free at last
Tasmania
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M S
Left a husk incapable of loving the field that was a lifelong passion and escape
Cambridge UK
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M S β Reflections
This is cathartic
Black Dragom
Do you deny the favours of your lord ?
Englandiana
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Black Dragom β Reflections
In the end, the commitments and long hours doesnβt mean anything to anyone. When theyβre done with you theyβll kick you out the door
Unknown Academic
Simply didn't "want it" enough
Cambridge, UK
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Unknown Academic β Reflections
thanks for setting up this place to grieve!
Anon
My work's in the REF submission, I'm not employed in UKHE anymore
UK
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CMT
I finally get benefits, vacation, and can pay my bills.
Somewhere I chose to live, not where academia had a job.
π₯
MBR
Subjectivty and bullying, alas the tenure reqs could not be assessed well.
Corvallis, Ore.
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support open education
if i hadn't been laid off due to COVID i would have died from the toxicity
HELL
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R
Here lies a career that would have ruined my life
A better place
π₯
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R β Reflections
Research that was not trendy enough and a last spark of self-worth drove me out.
RBW
She soon learned this "lifestyle" came with a cost: her health & happiness.
Maryland, USA
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RBW β Reflections
It took my father's death in the first year of my tenure-track position to realize the sickness and anxiety working in academia caused was NOT the legacy I wanted to leave for myself, my students, and my children.
K Giles
Published and perished
USA
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K Giles β Reflections
There is a better after-life.
PSDC
Killed by Passion
Denmark
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DM
less production of knowledge than egos
nowhere stable
π
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DM β Reflections
I never fully pictured myself as an academic but was always told I could make it, that it would fulfill me. Paper success in graduate school fueled unrealistic expectations of academic potential. The reality is, my "pessimistic" view on the professoriate is an optimistic hope for actual happiness.
A. Z. B
I got pregnant. RIP digging around the world.
Europe
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A. Z. B β Reflections
Having a child in academia is a bad idea.
Grad Stud - Postdoc - Contingent
Treated like trash every step of the way. One of too many.
Higher Ed, Everywhere
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π
Grad Stud - Postdoc - Contingent β Reflections
Higher Ed stinks.
L
University destroyed my mental health so I had to drop out
Spain
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SdL
Impossible to get a PhD in my field
The Netherlands
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GH
Outstanding teaching.Never published.
Atlanta, GA
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Jack H
Homless PhD resorting to crime to enter Cern or roof over my head? A Roof it is
Milton Keynes
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Jack H β Reflections
It didn't help that fem-radical (Misandry) Social Services purposefully moved me back into Milton Keynes in 2006 intentionally messing up my GCSEs and thus leaving me to go through Key Skills every Academic season. Time ran out and I had to chose between: a life of crime and homelessness to get the money to complete the courses needed for my dreams; A life of dead-end minimum wage jobs that make no difference in the world.
Being on the ace end of the spectrum, I now merely exist ._.
HB
I didn't know I was just supposed to build YOUR empire rather than my own ideas.
PhD Advisors' Former Pawn
π₯
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HB β Reflections
ABD dropout. Now an adjunct. Don't know how long I'll continue as an adjunct with the dismal pay. I do love teaching though.
Just too much
Still fighting
Rural tri-state area
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Just too much β Reflections
Iβm on my way. I have tenure but Iβm exhausted. Iβm doing my best to keep up. Itβs that time when 10 emails come in before each class. Have to collate the presentation grades and groups. I wonβt touch the scholarship until after grades are submitted. No idea how to find time to write my personal statements. Fell asleep at 7:30 and up again at midnight. We are βin personβ; there is no zoom linkβrinse and repeat. Privately, I donβt think I add much to the world through grading. If you do find something else youβd like better, do it.
M
Derailed off the tenure track
North Carolina
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RN
they wore down the soft parts.
London, Englandia
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RN β Reflections
It doesnβt matter how many people say, βyouβre on the right track, doing all the right thingsβ- so is everyone else. It doesnβt matter how βcutting edgeβ, βpolicy relevantβ or βhigh impactβ your work is- so is everyone elseβs. It actually didnβt matter that you took a day off out of sheer exhaustion. It doesnβt matter what you do when the system is rigged.
FCKDK
I will haunt the dreams of those who create a toxic environment in academia
USA
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FCKDK β Reflections
After being called a wannabe academic, being bullied for two years, reprimanded for continuing to do research as a contingent faculty member , they did not renew my contract.
EMW
Black me out.
New England
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DL
Tired of being disposable labour
Oxford
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J.B.
Too trans. Got ill. Here lies the career I wanted.
London
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Dr G
Of Blessed Memory
USA
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Dr G β Reflections
Succumbed to structural violence and systematic demoralization
βAnd though you want to last forever, you know you never will, and the good-bye makes the journey harder still.ββCat Stevens
BLC
Abused every day for last 3 yrs of PhD. These people are sick and untouchable.
York, UK
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LAA
Tenure-track but university is no longer honoring tenure.
USA
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AD
Here lies the academic everyone wanted me to be. Everyone except me.
Hong Kong
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AD β Reflections
I'm leaving in joyful defiance of all my well-meaning and fearful colleagues who don't dare imagine they could be happy and secure somewhere else. See ya.
AAH
To be true is to be free
Seattle, WA
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AAH β Reflections
Academia is a caste system for desperate vampires.
A n other
Patronised once too often by faculty with fewer pubs and less grant capture
teaching and learning center
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A n other β Reflections
How dare I worry about paying medical costs for chronic illness
Iβll miss the colleagues who treated me as a human not as furniture
anonymous
She could no longer navigate the exploitative, sharky behavior of older scholars
South Africa
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LRG
NTT, heavy service, burned out
Southern US
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LRG β Reflections
This isn't how it is supposed to be.
A defeated Library Media Specialist
Here lies an awesome library program, now dead due to no district funding.
Florida
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MS
Neurodivergent PoC grad student thought it was a safe space.
TO, CA
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MS β Reflections
Dont go to uni with a huge name. They usually suck.
Altha Jane Cravey
Fought injustice as long as possible.
UNC
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Altha Jane Cravey β Reflections
I sued my chair and UNC over sex discriminiation and retaliation and retired abruptly a year ago (as part of the legal settlement). I'm glad to see a site like this where I can express my grief and my rage.
Andrew Johnson
Should have been better
Baltimore
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Andrew Johnson β Reflections
My heart is broken anew every day.
AMO
Published AND Perished
Everywhere and nowhere
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AMO β Reflections
She dared quit a tenure track job for her mental health. Forever shunned.
DISESTABLISHED
Never allowed to fly
Newcastle
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DISESTABLISHED β Reflections
For shame!
KBG
I thought there would be cake.
Washington, D.C.
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JS
She started with hope, and she just was not what the boys wanted.
New Zealand
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JS β Reflections
Still, and always will be hopeful
KM
Zero support, confidence destroyed. 5 years on happy in new job
UK
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P. E. H.
Tried writing a thesis while severely depressed. Failed and dropped out.
Germany
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AMH
Adjuncted too long, delayed completing my PhD, there is no longer a place for me
PA
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Gabriele de Seta
Just one more postdoc and I will be employable
Wherever there is a job
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Gabriele de Seta β Reflections
"How don't you have a job yet?"
Rainbow
Doesn't play well with narcissists
Oxford
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Rainbow β Reflections
When you walk away from a prestigious institution, you take your skills and experience with you wherever you go.
CP
Everything was beautiful and nothing hurt
Cincinnati, OH
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CP β Reflections
I found life on the other side
Death by toxic Admin
The everything else stripped the joy from teaching itself.
Does it even matter?
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Death by toxic Admin β Reflections
Tenured, Promoted, then smacked in the face by admin that my time was apparently not as valuable anymore. So Iβve ended up in permanent overload and yet Iβm underperforming.
JD
Overworked and underemployed
a little bit of everywhere
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CG, PhD
She discovered only male academics were allowed to have families
VA, USA
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FPM
A liberal arts education meant jack.
West coast, USA
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FPM β Reflections
Didn't realize that bootstrapping through taking customer service roles would undermine my credibility by *that much.*
SL
Exhausted Postdoc - expected the grind to have end - wishful thinking
Germany
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RZ
dreams turned off
Kyiv
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Dr. Leahcim Semaj
Resurrected as Above or Beyond Inc.
Boca Eaton, Fort Lauderdale, Kingston
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Dr. Leahcim Semaj β Reflections
I read the game early and escaped to the real world.
Free to be my best self.
No Limits.
S.E.N.
She thought her love for poetry and literature would see her through
Hyderabad
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S.E.N. β Reflections
Well I wasn't even let in to begin a career in Academia.
OB
Former postdoc
Cambridge
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OB β Reflections
Got funding cut from the dream job: realised that the dream job shouldn't make you constantly stressed and miserable
Anonymous
The tenure trap is a feature of the abusive environment, not a bug.
USA
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Unemployed PhD
Here rests a PhD that did worth less than a covering letter
United Kingdom
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Unemployed PhD β Reflections
Dead dreams take long to rot.
Anonymous
I had the passion and got ignored. Big names mean nothing.
Center of PA
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SP
It's not me it's you
NYC
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SP β Reflections
Very satisfying
S
He peaked too soon and ultimately disappointed his employers.
The North, UK
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S β Reflections
Follow an academic career path in reverse I burnt out of a permanent role into ever increasingly precarious and junior roles until my academic career simply fizzled out.
CMS
student 4eva
Colonial hellscape
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Anon
Wouldn't spend 3 months living with a man I had never met
Colorado
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Endowed Professor
Not homophobic enough
Holland, Michigan
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I gave up
Former Acadmeic
Melbourne
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Anonymous
Long hours, low pay, limited opportunities
UK
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Anonymous β Reflections
Pay's awful for the skills/leadership etc we are given daily; possibilities for progression seem limited; and a sense that progress is based on the stuff we don't get time to do. Looking elsewhere - but haven't made the leap yet.
WER
Crushed by the excessive expectations of the academic job market
NC
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π₯
Harassed out
Realized I, and my skills, would be more valued elsewhere
Everywhere
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Harassed out β Reflections
Academic bullying sucks.
Department Chair
Dreamed of paying student loans on her salary
USA
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Nikkin
6 years adjuncting & still underpaid til i'm laid to rest
CO
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K.K.
To the prof who said "Maybe you don't belong here", I'm glad.
Heaven, too, is a gated community; Hell is for the people.
π
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K.K. β Reflections
Thanks for this!
C
The good ole boys won.
SC, USA
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CAP
I didn't respond well to being exploited.
Arizona
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JC
how naive of me to think it wasn't nepotism & backchannels all the way down
bumblefuck, indiana
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Hannah Alpert-Abrams
would've been good at it
usa
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Hannah Alpert-Abrams β Reflections
byeeeee
DS
Here lies an academic who didn't want to be an academic
Hyderabad.
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s.a.
some dumb 1st gen redneck who thought working hard would be enough
new england (reluctantly)
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s.a. β Reflections
I thought being a professor was a job, I was wrong.
David
PhDone with this Shit
Boston
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David β Reflections
I am so glad that I spent 3 years of my life with deteriorating mental health for a nonexistent job market!
CB
Overworked, underpaid adjunct.
NY
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CB β Reflections
Work until you croak. Still donβt make enough to pay rent.
RDK
Now to become the gnarled oak; to thrive uncut
Washington DC
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RDK β Reflections
Why court the one holding the ax? Shun the woodsman and seek the favor of children and travelers instead.
KEA
Told my teaching aspirations didn't count; research only
Virginia, USA
π
Dead and dying
Death by UGC's apathy
Hyderabad
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EJWB
Wanted to understand what makes a safe place
Scotland
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EJWB β Reflections
Me and the current academic culture kept clashing.
I didn't like the expectation I should work 50+hours a week, over 6-7 days a week to progress my career, and be willing to move around the country and/or across the world. I felt guilty about this. I tried to adapt.
I didn't like the focus on individual progression, on individual brilliance and exceptionalism, I wanted to be part of a brilliant team, not brilliant alone.
In the end I accepted trying to adapt was making me more ill.
It seemed impossible to reasonably accommodate managing my neurodivergence and chronic health conditions in the prevailing culture.
I reluctantly left, finding a job where I could work less than 40 hours a week, over 4-5 days a week, serve the public directly, and be rewarded for collaborating well with others.
It suits me better.
But the research I wanted to pursue around what people perceive as a safe place, where we find pockets of safety in risky places, how we define and represent safety and for whom.
How we have more safe and inclusive places. Research I wanted to start and find collaborators for. Research I still think is sorely needed. It didn't happen. I initially hoped I could go back to it at some point. And now I'm not sure I ever will.
I am doing good and beneficial work where I am. Maybe I'll actually make a bigger contribution to Scotland doing what I do now.
But over 3 years on I till grieve the loss of this sometimes.
Biffo
My PhD made me unemployable.
A Citizen of the World
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BJ
More degrees minted than departments hiring.
Texas
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BJ β Reflections
It's so frustrating to know that departments keep churning out folks with advanced degrees, but then refuse to open up hiring to anyone but adjuncts. What's the point of any of this?
A
Out of funding
Edinburgh
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NJM
I chose career stability and sanity over endless adjuncting.
Seattle, WA
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NJM β Reflections
I still mourn even though Iβve been out 4 years and enjoy my career now. Academia is a helluva cult.
Sarp Kargi
Welp, I hope round 2 of undergrad works and this plot goes unused..
Manchester, UK
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Sarp Kargi β Reflections
No matter what, I'm quite happy about the painful lessons my experiences have given me...
A
Forever ABD
EU
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A β Reflections
Don't got the courage to quit yet but PhD seems so impossible after 6+ yrs away
Tenured & Fired
Even tenure wasn't enough. Colleagues just looked away.
Happening Everywhere
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VC
Tenure denied
PA
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VC β Reflections
There lies the minority who fought to not be tokenized, needed an income, drown in debt and got denied tenure. She tried, she failed, she did not surviveπ₯
AS
Tired of the job market
England
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AS β Reflections
Tired of being unhappy; learned I could thrive elsewhere
Recent Ph.D. Grad
Naive in my program choice ~ Severely bullied and drained of money and time.
A Prestigious School
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Recent Ph.D. Grad β Reflections
Great idea! I hope that this helps me find closure.
Anonymous
Giving birth was apparently the death of her academic career.
Missouri
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H
Death by trying to make a full time wage as a casual
Regional University
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H β Reflections
Seven years as a casual academic, and I can't do it anymore. I could be less stressed running a multinational company.
Dymphna
Died a slow and painful death alone, body found covered in unfinished articles
Toronto
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BB
Here lies the dreams and goals of a young graduate student
Davis, CA
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BB β Reflections
Great idea, and sad
MW
Had Bills to Pay
UK
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DR
R.I.P.
USA
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DR β Reflections
Brilliant scholar left broken by racism and discrimination in STEM
FML
Bullied for two years and then kicked to the curb.
USA
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FML β Reflections
My students loved me and my evaluations were always higher than the department average. I also won teaching awards at my prior university.
Beloved Wife and Mother
Death by Two-Body Problem
College Town, USA
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S H
Lacked the confidence of a straight white man and died under pressure.
France
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AC
Never get a PhD. Always a waste of time, energy, money, and your soul.
AZ
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WCO6
Life sucked out by postions of responsibility, but no authority.
USA
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WCO6 β Reflections
I have completely run out of you know whats to give.
Tim Rayner
Saw The Light
Cambridge
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Tim Rayner β Reflections
Academia, by design, focuses attention on one's own goals, at the expense of the team and the overall objective. It doesn't have to be that way, and often in industry, it isn't.
Jennifer Polk
She had so much potential
Toronto, ON
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Jennifer Polk β Reflections
As it turns out, the afterlife is way more fun and interesting than she imagined.
Godswisdom
I had abandoned everything... Farewell my years of hard work!
Nigeria
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WY
"sub-optimal fit" & "Narrow and topical research"
The Netherlands
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Alexis Santos
Let me run one more model
University Park, PA
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Alexis Santos β Reflections
He probably still wants to run one more model.
Department Chair
The new hired without experience makes $5,000 more. No hopes to match it.
USA
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GMS
Loved doing research. His awards showed his fit. Never got an interview.
Porto Alegre, BR
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GMS β Reflections
Great to have a place to remember and to mourn our attempts into this crazy academic life.
Bp
Former assistant teaching faculty
USA
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Bp β Reflections
Heβs in a better place now and no longer suffering.
N/A
tried to climb the long ladder but fell into a wheelchair
Fortress Europe
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GW
Another five years buried, more years to bury.
Nigeria
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GW β Reflections
Good site!
EA
Funding and passion dwindled to nothing
R1, USA
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Anon PhD
Bullied by advisor. Will find some job that deserves my efforts...
UK
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AA
Tried to unionize
Northeastern University
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AA β Reflections
The admin sent armed cops every time we passed out fliers to our fellow workers
Jessica
"We're like a family here"
Flagstaff
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LF
Let down by those who should have raised her
SW
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LF β Reflections
Lack of support surrounding disowns long term illness. Exceptions made to my healthy male peers but not available for me
SC
Nervous breakdown, torched PhD. Now I'm a librarian.
The Northeast
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AOK
Scholarships all cut to pay public debt interest and praise neoliberals
Brazil
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SG
Believed in meritocracy, killed by neoliberalism
UK
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shine choi
I tried but it was fucking impossible!!!!
aotearoa nz
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shine choi β Reflections
sucks always being the problem, hate the tokenism that makes failures and shittiness mine. I am just trying to do the work ffs. better leave before pple destroy my health and soul, before they destroy the self in self determination
Ilona Sotnikova
Lost meaning
USA
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Ilona Sotnikova β Reflections
My life turned into work. Work is too demanding and less satisfying.
Elisa, PhD ABD
Adjunct - TA - Adjunct - admin GA - ?
Central NY
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Elisa, PhD ABD β Reflections
In 1 of 2 US degrees in my field;
The Ginger Dwarf
Forgot to Lie for the Dean
Bath Spa University
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The Ginger Dwarf β Reflections
When an investigation is underway, make sure you know what outcome the University desires and then coverup and lie for them if need be
DHA
Child of 2 academics. Failed grad student. In exile as staff of faculty union.
A Nutmeg in the Land of Steady Habits
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Eli Rose
I miss teaching.
Atlanta, GA
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Eli Rose β Reflections
I spent 15 years in academia, counting graduate school. In the end, working in academia was a disaster for me β not just economically, but also emotionally, politically, morally and for my family. I finally left and found another career instead. I don't idealize academia. I'm happier. But I still mourn the losses. It's the loss of no longer getting to teach, to read, to do research. It's the loss of my own expertise and experience, and the decline of some of my social relationships and networks. I mourn the suffering I went through, the psychological damage and the sheer wasted time. And I disliked the pressure to constantly find a silver lining and stay optimistic no matter what. I want space for all those thoughts. The better to work through them.
Anonymous
I told you I was sick.
Dead end academic librarian
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Anonymous β Reflections
Home of broken dreams
Jenna E.
Off in search of a way to make real change in the world
Washington, DC
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Jenna E. β Reflections
Like many political scientists, when Sandy Hook happened in 2012, she began a new line of research. But there was plenty of work in the area already. If academics canβt prevent school shootings, why bother? On top of this malaise, she suffered a chronic two body problem and a sudden miscarriage proved fatal.
Former Academic
I finally had enough. God, I'm so tired.
The Netherlands
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DJ
Should have listened to the friends who warned you about that advisor
Brooklyn, NY
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anon
15 years service, fired over MS Teams
UK
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SW
Couldn't balance job search with family needs
California
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C
Leaving with a little bit of sadness but an overwhelming sense of relief
Australia
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MeghanBPhD
tenured in name only
Bloomington, IL
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MeghanBPhD β Reflections
Georgia Nugent is evil.
PTG
Simply not that good at doing experiments.
boston, MA
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Jane Doe
Refused to be a Marytr
PA-NY-IL
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Jane Doe β Reflections
I managed to avoid the worst parts of the academic underbelly: deep debt, mental breakdown, health crisis. But I stepped off the VAP merry-go-round when I realized that no matter what I did, I was always going to end up back in the same place. My epitath is a means to reclaim agency and subvert the narrative.
AJH
Dead academic careers leave no corpus
I travelled far to live
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AJH β Reflections
If you were meant to be an academic and didn't become one, you must find a way to live like a pianist who lost their hands. Learn to live through the music of others.
E
Perished instead of published
Australia
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R.C.
No publications + no funding = no postdoc
UK
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R.C. β Reflections
Add in an unsupportive supervisor, ruined mental health, and the two body problem... it's just not worth it!
BJS
Quit after discovering there really was a last straw
Sydney Australia
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BJS β Reflections
I spent 20y trying to balance escalating workloads with raising neurodiverse kids, and held everything together during first COVID lockdown, only to be threatened with job loss if I didnβt switch to a non-research position (while working on two grant projects). Discovered I had a spine and took VR.
Former Assistant Professor
She realized tenure-track hell was paved with good intentions
Anywhere, USA
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Liz B
Sanity Prevailed, I left.
UK and Ireland
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Liz B β Reflections
Sadly I surrendered the dream. Ridiculous pressure to produce voluminous, mindless content, feed egos, and plagiarised ideas to build selfish careers. Academia should be a place to think, be creative, improve the human condition and spirit, but the ablist, neoliberial university is mind crushing and soul destroying for early career academics.
SC
Got out and found greener pastures
Everywhere
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Pinar
In loving memory of "research time"
Liverpuuul
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IRH
He wouldn't move to Sh*tsville Arkansas for a 1-yr VAP
Purgatory
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SG
Too many ideas, too slow at writing them
The universe
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Jakob Williams Oerberg
Liked working and building things with other people too much
Denmark
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Jakob Williams Oerberg β Reflections
Universities are not yet ready for criss cross careersβ¦ other things are wrong too β> read more tombs!
EW
It was time to give up hope.
The States
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AT
Laid off after 14 yrs of abuse, couldn't bring myself to go back for more
NAU
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SW
Failed academic, well, not really failed, A+ for effort, B for actual results
Ohio
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SW β Reflections
I am enjoying my role of finding the kimwipes for your students you are too busy to supervise
Neizvestnyi
Academia is no place for a disabled person
USA
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Neizvestnyi β Reflections
Between cuts affecting my masterβs program, an advisor who left to administer and one year of minimum wage pay for a teaching job requiring that MA I quit before starting a PhD.